Tuesday, 26 March 2013
A Conversational Breakthrough:)
Today is the most common day of the week for me to get a spanking. This could be maintenance, reset, punishment(often saved up:( ), fun :) or just plain because. It is hubby's day off you see. We spend the day together, just us, no kids, oldies (we have several of these, bless them), just us. Always at some point of the day we talk about ttwd, mostly it is like pulling teeth and this is the point where I feel like try as I might I am just a little bit in control. I don't want to be, not one teensy bit, but I started this and I want it so bad that I know I am always pushing just a bit.
Today something changed , not exactly Eureka but for us close to.
Now whether you believe it or not I am basically a good girl, He has stopped the swearing, (or the paddle has) I am pretty good on the housework stakes, I like looking after him, I don't lie, I am pretty respectful, yada yada yada. Yes, I am boring.
When we first started spanking it was a way to spice up our sex life, just for fun. Okay for a while, but I knew I wanted more. My hubby is a really gentle man and when I plucked up courage to explain about dd at first he was horrified. It took weeks before he would even consider it . Always though we have worked together in our marriage and so after a while he decided to try. At first it felt like a game, like we were acting the part.
Gradually over the last nine months he has got braver,
learn't to lecture ;((( , bought some implements, punished when he wanted to not when I wanted to.
Life has got better, we are closer, I feel calmer, he feels stronger, and today:
We were laying in bed this morning chatting and he said
"I am trying to think of a lecture I can give you but you have been too good. No spanking today, It's not right any more to just play at it, we are doing this properly now. "
Me - speechless!
Finally he talked, he made the decisions, laid down a few ground rules, we are on our way at last.
So today I am spank free, other more pleasurable activities took place instead, I am hoping for an erotic spanking to appear on the horizon whilst he admits he is hoping I do something naughty sooner rather than later!! My darling man has eyes like a hawk, I won't be getting away with much and a few new rules are starting to be introduced. You know what;
I am a happy girl, married to a wonderful man who has taken this lifestyle on board for me and I appreciate him and everything he does for me so much, yep even the spankings with the bleeping paddle.
I hope that you are all having a good day,