ARE WE BACK ON TRACK?
Over the last few weeks we have definitely been slipping backwards. Now I can blame the builders, BUT, I know that really it is our own faults. I say both of us but if I am honest (and what's the point of any of it if I am not truthful?) it is probably , okay okay definitely me:(
I may have grown a little like this:
and over the last few days my hubby has tried to reel me in . Yesterday morning we had an attempt at maintainance or whatever ( yes that word has popped out a few times). There was plenty of ouching, plenty of spanking but I knew deep inside that I was nowhere near my happy place. The rest of the day we enjoyed but I still felt snarky and out of sorts.
During the evening I could feel myself getting moodier, hubby ignored it really. I made a few sarcastic comments, told him I was bored and then :
Actually I made a different gesture but cats don't have fingers. I am sure you get the picture.
At this point I took myself off to bed, leaving hubby in peace to watch television and plan the morning's activities:(
I woke up early and snuck away feeling guilty, a while later and I knew I had to face the music. I sweetly took my hubby some juice and snuggled up in bed chatting. Soon however things became more like this:
My husband is not usually into the big lecture, mostly I get you know why we are here lets get on with it.Today however he excelled himself:(
Conversation went something like this:
It seems as though yesterday's little session didn't help at all with this snippy attitude. I have had enough. You are being bossy, giving orders,answering back, giving me gestures, moping ,whining and it's got to stop.
I am not giving orders and I am trying to stop, really I am
Note I couldn't really defend the other charges , not without lying ( and that's not allowed).OTB , that's where I went next.
I think the last couple of days have earn't more than my hand , I am going to use some of my weapons of a** destruction!!! (chuckling to himself, how rude)
No No I'll be good, please not the hairbrush ,please please. ouch ouch
smack smack smack, I thought it would never end and then lol he stopped:
Oh bummer, the damn hairbrush has cracked, thats a pain, ( he sounded so sad for a moment)
Are you done then ? I whimpered, .bottom burning, god I am glad the hairbrush is broken
Am I heck,I'll just find something else, he said picking something else up and applying it to my poor bottom with gusto.
Ow , ow, oh no don't please, what is that ouch...
Are you going to be good,stop whining , stop telling me what to do?
Yes,yes I will, I promise oh stop with that please please
It was my slipper, on top of the hairbrush I had had enough and amidst more lecturing to stop behaving like I have been and start being good frantic promises to be good followed swiftly. He finished off with his hand and forgiveness.
Back to bed for cuddles;).The after spanking is so much better than the before. I do feel calmer and less snippy. We did discuss more immediate action so I don't let it all build up to a massive drama and a really sore bottom . This is how I look now:
Does this mean we are back on track?
I hope so, I am really trying ( he is always calling me that btw!).
Hope you all have a lovely day and that ttwd is working in your home, love Janxxx