I think we have hit a teensy bump in our ttwd road of life. Owing probably ( no definitely(and I still can't do the crossing out thing)) due to my ongoing, never ending, whining and moaning about being in pain. T hings have
Get the drift?
Well last night after reading one too many blogs about all of you lot whom I am becoming quite jealous of, all plodding on quite happily. Before you say it, I KNOW . We are all different, we all go at our own pace,all that stuff that I generally trot out to everyone else. I also know that not everyone is having a high old time but my reading was quite clearly selective.
Just let me say this is not my general mode of action. NORMALLY, I love it when I read about someone's success story and fret about someone who is struggling. Last night however I didn't, and thought maybe we could have a little chat, just a weeny little conversation.
Now I will admit that I had maybe (okay positively) been a bit quiet (sulky) FOR GODS SAKE WILLIE TELL ME HOW TO DO THE CROSSING OUT THING AGAIN PLEASE.
When we were snuggled up in bed and were sort of dozing off I just happened to say,
" I have been blogging today and I feel that whilst everyone else is jogging along nicely we have come to a standstill"
Now I don't think I was accusing or loud or anything really but ....
Hubby went bananas ( not like him either actually). He was very defensive and started yelling that he felt under pressure. He was a bit accusing and then started in with attack. For once I was speechless so I decided to shut up and say no more. He didn't even give me chance to explain before he leapt into action and turned the lights on and started rummaging in his toy bag.
Bleeping H**l, he spanked me. After a drought, he spanked and in anger too. He lectured and accused and was definitely very cross with me.
This was so rare and by this time I was so angry I refused to make a single sound ( and bloody hard that was too as he used the wooden ruler after a dose of his hard hand). I will never know how I managed to say nothing , don't get me wrong I know I could have stopped him at any point but I just lay there over those flipping piloows and took it SILENTLY.
When he stopped saying sadly "
This isn't working either is it ?" I flounced off to the bathroom and got into bed without saying a single word.
Now all this is unheard of in the Rose household.
Things were a bit tense this morning to say the least, but as we were visiting a nearby city for the day I knew we would talk on the journey.
Well we did and it turned out to have been a simple misunderstanding. I think whilst he thought calling a halt to it all while I was in so much pain was him being kind and caring, I had thought it was him being uncaring and inconsistent about ttwd!!
I think he has been putting up with my moods and blaming illness whilst I have been worse to try and get a reaction.
"Oh the webs we weave when we practise to deceive"
Basically, served me right for being a pain in the neck,
Today we have promised to talk more and he is going to try to be a bit more consistent. One thing he is going to do is text me more when he is at work. He works nights and I am struggling with long hours alone at the minute. I feel happier tonight and hopefully so does he.
Incidentally ,and this is so embarrassing, there are no pictures to lighten the mood of this jolly little tale because I am working on the PC and not my notebook. This is because OMG I have had to take it in to be fixed because , well actually I don't know why or else I would have fixed it myself. I had to sign in to my blog in front of the male child who is endeavouring to fix it for me to show him the problem. Be thankful none of you use your real names. I wanted to sink throught the floor. Hubby is going to collect it for me. By now the poor boy knows all my secrets. Believe me I was tempted to throw it away and buy a new one.
Hope everyone is well and happy.