Today has been our first day without company and isn't it funny that the first thing we embark on is a spanking. We were laying in bed this morning and discussing what we would do today and we both just grinned at each other.
Now as you all know I am pretty good, there are not many punishment spankings in the Rose household but I definitely feel that we have lost our way a bit. Over Christmas ( and actually before, I know there have been a lot of things that my darling could have picked me up on, attitude, whinging, and he was fleetingly cross when I left the electric blanket on all day as well as all night. Oops!. This morning however he must have had his rose coloured glasses on . He seems to see me as this:
I myself feel that I have been more like this:
Oh well I thought, this is going to be a picnic.
"You can choose today" he said.
"Choose what ?" I replied.
"Two implements, off you go, get moving"
I never choose, never. I actually didn't know what to pick. " Can I choose your hand as one?"
"Very funny my sweet, but no. You are keeping me waiting now, not a good idea"
Rummaging through the selection I finally settled on a very gentle paddle and a long ruler that he likes. I avoided the wooden paddle and the new leather paddle that both hurt like billy oh
"That paddle is pathetic, you never even feel it. I guessed you would pick that", he chuckled.
He started with his hand. I couldn't help it. I started complaining straight away. "Too hard, too hard".
"Good grief, I have hardly started, keep still, you are barely pink yet!"
I think maybe because my spankings have been few and far between I felt it more than normal. I was quite frankly a pain in the a**.
He moved onto the other implements quite quickly, warning me that if I kept on dancing about this would soon turn into the sort of spanking I wouldn't like. There wasn't much lecturing at all, in fact he said that
as I had been so good he was struggling to find things to lecture me about!!
I certainly wasn't going to remind him of my misdemeanours, so I kept
quiet and still, squirming and squealing until we both collapsed in giggles and cuddles. A great start to the day.
The thing is, while this morning was fun I am a bit worried that we have so lost our way. Is he not noticing because he is busy or is he not noticing because he doesn't want to? I am happy with our life really but there are times when I wish he would pull me up on things. I think that with me still being so poorly all the time he gives me too much leeway.
Later on we talked and I tried to let him know how much better I have felt today, both of us have been happier today actually, so hopefully this is the start of a return to where we were before I got so poorly.
Maybe I would some times like him to be a bit stricter and when I said this to him he said
" I find it really hard, it is not my nature and also at the moment it is not what you need. I can't be spanking you when you are in so much pain already!! It's ridiculous."
He loves me and I love him so ...............
This is what I told him today, I am so lucky to be married to this kind man, I will love him forever.
I hope you all have a great weekend,