Just a bit of a non post really. I don't know what is wrong with me. We have been happily (for the most part) ttwd ing for almost two years. We are really happy on a general every day basis
a bit of this,
( not much of that actually, more the former, but you get the general idea)
I am fairly good, no honestly, not much real naughtiness here, just the odd bit of snippiness...
Mostly spankings are for fun or reminding.
Now all of a sudden I am just not interested, nope, I can't be doing with any of it. I just keep avoiding all mention of ttwd. I am just me so actually he is not going to suddenly notice, as " me" is fairly ordinary and boring, a goody two shoes in fact. I can't even be bothered to cause a bit of spanking fun, no teasing, no gestures, no attitude .
When he swats me as he always does I just think "too hard, go away".
Obviously I am not saying anything to hubby beyond the odd ouch or a half- hearted giggle. I do find myself thinking I would rather have had a hug ( not that they are in short supply in this house either). Maybe I am just greedy.
Our son has recently moved back home so our privacy has been a teeny bit curtailed but not enough so you could say it has put an end to anything. He works when we don't and stays with his girlfriend a lot so that is not the problem. The problem is ME. I don't want to know and I have no idea why.
One evening this week hubby suggested a reminder was due, ( more for fun I think) and I refused , just said I didn't feel up to it. The next morning I refused again, giving the same excuse and he let me off. He knows something is wrong but I am sure he is at a loss as to what to do. After all as he said:
"I can't push it as you haven't actually done anything wrong".
I felt glad of the reprieve and just sort of dropped the subject . Now we have both let the topic die so.......
I know I am in the wrong by refusing and also by not talking but I just plain and simply don't want to.
If any one has any suggestions please feel free to throw them my way as I fear with me working full time for the next couple of months things are not going to improve. I honestly don't feel that I want to be spanked, not for any reason and as this is so unlike me I have no clue where we are heading.
I don't think reminder spankings do me any good at all, he has not really anything to remind me about usually and I have just started to think all the time how hard he is spanking and I don't seem to get there in my mind nowadays., much as I might try to.............
It all seems a bit pointless at the minute, maybe we need to have a break or something. Maybe I need to be naughty lol . Any ideas welcome.
Hope everything is going well for all of you