Monday, 30 June 2014

Sadness...

Hi everyone,

I just wanted to say hello. I am not ignoring you all at the moment. I am reading a few blogs but not commenting much at the minute.

I am feeling a bit low right now. I have left my job, and also given up the fight with my own business and shall shortly be closing my classes. I am totally overwhelmed , I cannot find the strength to rebuild yet again after yet another onslaught. I feel so sad, I never knew I could cry this much............

On the positive side I have more time to spend with my husband and family, :) They have been wonderful and I honestly don't think I could get through all this without them.

Gosh, I am so sorry to whinge yet again, please forgive me.

I hope all of you are well and happy.

love Jan,xx

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  1. So sorry Jan, I wondered where you had gone. Hope things get better soon and glad you are getting support from your loved ones. Remember, we're here too if you need it.

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  2. Oh Jan, I am so sorry for you. This is such a hard blow, but even if you have so much trouble, just don’t give up completely. Your husband and your family are there for you. And Sunny is right, we are here too. I hope so much that things get better again soon. Sending lots of good thoughts and energy,

    hugs

    Nina

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    1. Hi Ni Na, I can't seem to help myself at the moment. I really would like to give up. I am grateful to all of you for your support
      love Jan.xx

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  3. Jan,
    We all have seasons in our lives where it feels like nothing is right, or will ever be right again - and sharing your thoughts and feelings with your friends is not 'whinging'. (Is that an English word? Is it like whining I guess?)

    Sometimes just getting the words out helps, sometimes getting feedback helps - sometimes we need hugs, sometimes we need laughter - so just remember you've got a lot of friends here in blogland.

    Oh, and I'm so glad that you are enjoying more time with your hubby. That's always a plus!
    hugs,
    Cali

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    1. Hi Cali. yep whingeing is exactly the same as whining and I am an expert at it!! I am happy with my husband but feel a bit fragile. The slightest thing sets me off, thank you for your support. I am very grateful
      love Jan,xx

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  4. Jan,
    Please lean in on all of us. We all care very much about you. You love teaching and now it is time to play it forward to do something else. We are here to support you always.
    Meredith

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    1. Hi Meredith,thank you so much. I don't actually think I want to do anything else, maybe I just need a break,
      love Jan,xx

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  5. Jan, I'm so sorry this has happened. You're not whingeing, you telling us what is going on in your life, the tough times and the difficult emotions. If you need to pour them out here, then go for it. You're amongst friends.
    hugs
    Del

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    1. Hi DF, I am a champion moaner , I am boring myself let alone all my friends in Blogland! I am not seeing any "real" friends at the minute, can't face anyone. I am very grateful to everyone here
      love Jan,xx

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  6. I am so sorry for you...and you are not whining...and if you were....it would be OK. We love all of you.....Remember...a new door will open.
    hugs abby

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    1. Hi Abby, thanks for that, I think I will have a rest before I step through any new doors, :)
      love Jan,xx

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  7. Jan,
    I'm so sorry about your business and your job, I'm sure it's going to take some time to sort through all of the emotions you're feeling right now. It sounds like your family has been so supportive, and I hope you continue to lean on them, and enjoy the extra time with your husband.

    Big Hugs!!

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    1. Hi Jennelle, thank you very much, I am sure I will be alright in a while.My family is great and hubby is the best
      love Jan,xx

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  8. Jan, You're not whining at all. I know you'll miss your business a lot and your students will miss you. I hope this next chapter is full of time with your family and new adventures.

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    1. Hi Leah, I will miss my girls so much but I do know this is a good time to stop and I have found a new school for them all to go to. It's just hard after all this time,
      love Jan.xx

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  9. I agree with everyone here. I am so sorry. It is hard to lose what is close to our heart. Sometimes the doors open to a better place. Plus as you said now you have more time for family!

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    1. Hi Minelle, thank you so much. I am happy to be with my family but I feel guilty for my remaining students too
      love Jan.xx

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  10. Hey sweet Jan...I don't read whining here...I hear a friend in pain. I am so sorry you are having such a rough time...we are all here if there is anything we can do to help you...even if you just need someone to listen and not judge. Sending lots of prayers, healing energy and positive thoughts your way.

    Hugs and Blessings...
    Cat

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    1. Hi Cat, I am grateful to you and everyone out here. You have all been so kind
      love Jan,xx

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  11. Jan I am sorry you are going through so much. Life can so easily overwhelm us. I am sending virtual thoughts, prayers, and hugs your way dear. xx

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    1. Hi Petals, thanks, you are right, it is overwhelming, grateful for those hugs
      love Jan.xx

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  12. Jan... I am sorry you are going through such a tough time. Believe me when I say I so understand what you are going through. Hubby and I just made some difficult decisions about our business. I do feel your pain. You have many friends here who can support you. Know that I care and am here for you as well. Hang in there. Things will turn out in the manner they were intended even if different then we expected.

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    1. Hi Annabelle, I read your post, you have all my sympathy. We will be okay, life just throws us a bad ball now and again.
      love Jan.xx

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  13. Jan, I don't know what to say, except I'm so sorry you're having a bad time. You have so many friends here, whinge all you need to, that's what friends are for.

    Love and hugs, Rosie xx

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    1. Hi Rosie, It is lovely to hear from you, thanks for your support I appreciate it
      love Jan.xx

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  14. Oh Jan, I am so sorry. You love teaching and it's a big adjustment. You are not whinging, you are sharing, and I am so glad you did because we care very much about you and want to support you.

    I'm so glad your family are so supportive and that you have more time to spend with your family now. I hope things get better soon.

    Sending lots of (((Hugs)))
    Roz

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    1. Hi Roz, I hope you and Rick are okay. I do love my girls , I feel bad for letting them down but I am sick of the back stabbing and sniping at me when I don't deserve it. I feel it's best for my remaining girls to make a fresh start
      ove Jan.xx

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  15. Oh Jan, I am so sorry this has happened. Don't forget this community is there behind you as well.

    Sending love and big hugs,
    Ronnie
    xx

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    1. Hi Ronnie, thanks very much. I loved your post about London. We are off down there this weekend. Hope we have as much fun as you
      love Jan.xx

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  16. Jan,
    I'm real sorry that life is upside down right now. Mourning loss is not whining! Come hang out with us whenever you feel like it and let us know how you are doing.

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    1. Hi Susie, It is lovely to know that nobody minds my moaning out here, thanks for your kind words
      love Jan.xx

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  17. Jan,

    Owning your own business is very challenging, and not for everyone. It's too bad you have given up your job, but take time to enjoy your family, then consider your options.

    Hugs,
    Hermione

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    1. Hi Hermione, I have run my school for twenty five years and all has gone fine until recently. But this latest onslaught is just one too much. I have given up my second job too. I think maybe everything has just got a bit too much for me to handle at the minute. Retirement beckons:)
      love Jan.xx

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  18. I don't like the way this had to stop for you, but if it's truly over then you can have a new beginning. Anything you want to do, you get to reinvent you days - husband, family of course - but the rest of live is wide open. Take your time relax and think of how you really want to spend your time. I hope some of it will be here.

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    1. Hi Pk, you are right of course. I do know I can do anything I want to but it's so hard. I feel bad for my loyal students and after twenty five years for it to end this way is so horrid. I am really finding it hard to cope right now, panic and tears seem to be always near. I hope you are recovering from your scooter accident.
      love Jan,xx

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  19. I am so sorry for your sadness. I have a shoulder for you if you need to cry, two good listening ears if you need to talk, and a great big hug. I know it is wonderful to feel the support of family and friends. I also know your students are like part of your family too and that is a loss. We are all here for you. Love, terps

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  20. Hi Terps, thank you so much. I am at a loss at the moment
    love Jan,xx

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  21. Oh Jan. I am so sorry you are struggling. I wish I could hug you. Please know I am thinking of you and sending my support. Hang in there.

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    1. Hi Zoe, thank you very much, I am coming to terms with it now, classes end in a couple of weeks and I have found a lovely new teacher for my remaining students to go to.

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