This post is merely an expression of my joys and woes. please feel free to come back on a more entertaining day. I am sure there will be one eventually.
Now I am not a pessimist ( truly, my cup is plenty full) but really is there no point at which life suddenly becomes a jolly nice adventure instead of an endurance race? I swear I am getting too old for the bad bits.
For the past forty years ( yes I did say that and I bet some of you aren't even that old :), I have been caring for a bonkers parent. She has so many mental issues that if I wrote it all down you would think I was the bonkers one. Hmm....
Her health has deteriorated to the stage that she needs to be in a nursing home. I am on the verge of a breakthrough, I have found a lovely one prepared to take her on and She is nearly prepared to go. I do have a plus, sort of, because today I found out that I have to go in Hospital next week for a big old operation :( and without me she cannot stay where she is, living in abject misery.
I am a struggling, wobbly mess...
However I do have a secret weapon in my life and he has worked out a way to help me through each day.
His trusty method varies.....
Sometimes it is
Sometimes it is
and very often it is just the most perfect
All our spankings at the moment are for fun, there is a bit of do as you are told there but I have giggled at least once a day!!
Hubby has stepped up just when I need him too, He is not letting me get away with much and is keeping a tight control over my interactions with my mother. Several times he has removed me from the situation, and I feel so grateful that we brought ttwd into our lives, as it has given him a way to lead and a way for me to follow.
He is determined that after my hysterectomy I am not returning to the situation as it is. He is retiring and we are determined to focus that on each other.
I feel guilty, which is my mother's greatest aim actually. Her skill at emotional blackmail and control would win medals at the Olympics if it were an event. I am hoping that the staff at the nursing home will be able to get through to her. At least she will be cared for day and night, I have my fingers crossed for some happiness for her.
On a very nice note son number two has asked his dad to be his best man. Aw, He said some really lovely things to his dad and this is an event we are all looking forward to even though it is a way off yet.
Maybe life is good after all. :)
And Grandbaby said da da da today. Yay!!
Hope you are all having a good week,