Thursday, 3 May 2018

Sadness, Stress and Spanking....


Hello everyone,

Nice to be back, but I will warn you this is not a particularly jolly post so feel free to skip it. I won't hold it against you.

We had the most wonderful holiday ( okay so this is bit is jolly) . A leisurely week , riding round the Scottish Highlands on train after train...... We went on a super steam train, fancied ourselves as Julie Walters lookalikes as we followed in her footsteps to Mallaig and over the Glenfinnan viaduct ( as seen in the Harry Potter films) on another day. Visited Skye, Edinburgh, Inverness, went up Aviemore on a funicular railway. There was snow up there and skiers were doing their thing all around.
We stayed in a nice hotel, his Lordship drank a few drams of Whisky. Great company.  I was good girl all week ( ish)


And then we came home.........

We were held up at the airport, should have been a warning , as we  sat on the tarmac for two hours before we took off, you would think it would have clued me in that life was about to ski downhill faster than those Scottish skiers!

Now this bit isn't funny but oh my goodness I have had trouble keeping my mirth hidden.


After hours of delays at both airports, and a taking a wrong turn at the exit my darling husband got a speeding ticket , lol lol.
 It came through the post a week or so later, I have had some fun with it I can tell you. Threatened him with a you know what!!! He was a fair way over the limit and has had  to pay a fine , giggling.....
I do know that I shouldn't laugh but oh can you imagine what would have happened of it was me?

Anyway, on to the sadness. The day we came home my lovely father in law took  a turn for the worse.  We then spent much of the week sitting beside him. I spent one night just him and I, chatting on to him. I  so hope it gave him comfort. He was 92 and suffered from Dementia and while I know it was  a happy release for him I still feel so sad. Funnily enough I am struggling with silly things. I visit the home three or four times a week, on arrival I have to sign in and write who I am visiting. I find  it hard to not write his name as well as mil. Daft but true......
The hardest part was telling my sweet mother in law that his time was near. She bravely sat with him during that last day, bless her and we were with him when he passed away.


Night  Dad. miss you lots.x

He passed away on Friday 13th and it has been  a busy time since. Organising the funeral, sorting out his belongings and finances, keeping mum's spirits up the best I could.  I  like to think I have always  done my best for him,  He loved flowers so those I chose with care, we chose his favourite songs, and tomorrow I am speaking at the service. ( my speech has been read by mil, we are co conspirators ). It is  a measure of his  and her popularity that fourteen members of staff wish to attend the funeral. We have been so lucky with the support given to us.
 With little input from my husband's brother and sister the decisions are mostly ours and I will not crack just yet!

                                                   Life has been a tad on the stressful side.



 I know what I really really need.

Alas with grandbaby arriving tonight there is only a tiny window to fit that in and as I am wasting time writing this post I may just  have to wait


So I am wondering whether this will do .........

or whether if I get myself in this position  in double quick time


He will de-stress me in the usual fashion for ttwders




Chop chop my Sir, times ticking!

Have a good week everyone
love Jan, 
xx

36 comments:

  1. I'm sorry for your loss, Jan ... sounds like you are a special DiL ... big hugs ... nj

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    1. Hi Nj, To be honest they have been good parents to me, they are the complete contrast to my own parents!
      love Jan, xx

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  2. So sorry for your loss, Jan. But as to your question, yes. A smacked bottom is absolutely good for what ails you. Hope you can have one soon.

    Oh, and I never consider it a good idea to turn the tables on your top, no matter what sort of misfortune has befallen him. Just saying.

    Big hugs,
    Dev

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    1. Hi Dev, Thanks, yes you are so right and the longer I am going without the more stressed I am becoming! I know I shouldn't laugh but oh it is such a good opportunity, and I don't get many.
      love Jan, xx

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  3. Sorry to hear your loss. I lost my Mother-in-law from Alzheimers on my mother's birthday 3 years ago. When you said "held up at the airport", I thought you had been robbed. Sorry about flight delays - they happen. Cheer up or should I say "bottom's up" . Charlie

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    1. hi Charlie, oh golly , so sorry to mislead you. That doesn't happen much in Scotland! Thanks for your sympathy, sorry for your loss too. It is a dreadful disease, taking away our loved ones before they are even dead.
      love Jan, xx

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  4. So sorry about your FIL. I know most of what you are dealing with, since we lost my MIL last December. FIL is okay but there are so many decisions to make. I hope you got that spanking slipped in - sounds like you could really use one.

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    1. hi Pk, Thank you so much. I was thinking of you the other day, remembering your loss too. My mil is doing well really, I think today will be awful for her though, it is very worrying.
      love Jan, xx

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  5. Oh Jan, I send to you the biggest hug ever. Hopefully you got that spanking and can really enjoy your grand. May your sense of loss bring to light many fond memories of your FIL that get you through the days.
    Amy

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    1. Hi Amy,Thank you. I am babysitting for her tomorrow as my youngest is in a band and everyone else is going to watch, looking forward to it being just her and me after today!Hope you and Eric are still having fun while he is home.
      love Jan, xx

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  6. So very sorry to hear about your loss Jan, our thoughts are with you and the family. I understand struggling with 'silly' things, I did too with Mum. Those things are not actually silly or daft at all.

    It sounds as though your FIL was a wonderful and loving man. I know in time you will have many lovely memories of him. You are a wonderful and loving daughter in law.

    I hope you managed to sneak that spanking in.

    (((hugs)))
    Roz

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    1. Hi Roz, Because mil is still in the nursing home, I do find it a bit difficult. Seeing his room and just him not being there is rubbing it in! She seems okay though and I think really that is all that matters.
      love Jan, xx

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  7. So sorry for your loss, and condolences to everyone. Sad times, but also the time to celebrate all the wonderful times of the life of your father-in-law.
    He would have enjoyed hearing of your vacation.
    Have fun teasing your husband about the speeding ticket. And offer to take the spanking he deserves only on a one time only basis. A Win win!
    Hugs and love
    Red and Cindy

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    1. Hi Red, now that is a good idea! He will definitely go for that I reckon. We did talk about him at the wake, made us all laugh some of the tales that were told.
      love Jan, xx

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  8. So sorry for your loss Jan and John. What an end to what sounds like a beautiful holiday. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
    Hugs Lindy xx

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    1. Hi Lindy, Thanks very much. Today went well and I was glad I spoke, mum was pleased and I made everyone else cry!!
      love Jan, xx

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  9. Jan,
    We are away, but I wanted to say so sorry for your loss. I am thinking of you.
    Meredith

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    1. Hi Merry, oh how nice of you to interrupt your holiday, Hope it is going well. Thanks for your support.
      love Jan, xx

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  10. Condolences.

    I hope you got what you needed before grandbaby arrived. I'm sure if you didn't, she helped immensely.

    Hugs to you.

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    1. Hi Sunny, thanks, it has been a difficult day and they are here until Monday! I will be desperate by then lol
      love Jan, xx

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  11. Jan, My condolences to John, you and family. I was sorry to hear the news. I know you were very fond of him. Thinking of you all.

    Love,
    Ronnie
    xx

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    1. Hi Ronnie, Thank you, I will admit to being more upset than I thought. Managed to get through my speech and help mil so that is the most important thing.
      love Jan,xx

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  12. So sorry..prayers and thoughts to you and all your family. Even when we know it is coming, death of a loved one is hard. I am sure you were a big comfort to him, and continue to be one to you MIL...A spanking and a visit from a grand/daughter..are terrific mood lifters....hugs abby

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    1. Hi Abby, thank you so much, I am amazed at how resilient mil is! Bless her
      love Jan, xx

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  13. Jan, I'm sorry for your loss of your precious FIL. I'm glad you had your grandchild to comfort you. May God bless you and your loved ones at this time.

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    1. Hi Windy, thanks and thanks for visiting my corner of the land
      love Jan, xx

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  14. Hi Jan, I'm SO sorry about your father-in-law. I hope that your mother-in-law is doing okay. I think that you are an amazing DIL! It is so very sad and hard when both parents are in a care home. I remember all of this so very well. You are so loving!

    Did you get some spanky business from your beloved? Fingers crossed that you did, and then some! :) I hope that you had a fabulous girl time with your grand! Nothing like a little one to bring cheer (and wear you out too- LOL!)

    Think of you often. Sending a whole lot of love to you, John and the rest of your family. Many hugs,

    ❤️Katie xoxo

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    1. Hi Katie, Thank you so much. Mil is doing fine,much better than I hoped for really. And yes I have had some spanky action since son and dil and grandgirl went home. Feeling much better now!
      love Jan, xx

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  15. Jan, I have been away from home for most of the last 4 weeks and am just now trying to catch up with friends. I am very sorry for your loss. I know you always had great affection for your hubby's parents, and we feel the loss even though, we know it's coming.

    Hug one another and treasure your family every day. Sam's father was just as dear to me as my own dad, and it was so hard to say goodbye.

    Sending a Big Hug Across the Pond,
    Ella

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    1. Hi Ella, thank oyu very much. Hope all is well with you and Sam, been thinking about him lately. My parents in law are very important to me, it has been hard, seeing her getting on fine is helping though.
      love Jan, xx

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  16. Sorry for your loss. I hope the funeral went well and you are doing good. Maybe you can offer to take the spanking for the speeding ticket if you can't get your relief spanking soon enough. I love how your post is filled with so much love and that you can find positive in life even when things have gone poorly. You are in my prayers.

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    1. Hi Blondie, thank you. Everything went well and we are all plodding on! I have had a few spankings since, he doesn't need an excuse, though I did tell him what Red said too! Hope all is well with you and yours
      love Jan, xx

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  17. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending love and light and hugs your way. Thinking of you and yours

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    1. Hi Terps, Thank you very much. You are so kind. Hope everything is okay with you .
      love Jan, xx

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  18. Oh Jan, I am so sorry for your loss. I missed this post when recently trying to catch up. It is so hard to lose our loved ones. Going to the care home visiting your mil must bring up the pain and also love every time.
    I still feel my parents loss every day. I think about them and talk to them still. It gives me comfort. Hope you find that as well.
    I am glad you have your sweet gran baby to enjoy!
    Happy for the spanky action!

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  19. I totally missed this post too, i'm so sorry to hear about the passing. I hope things are settling down a bit by now and that you'd have gotten that stress relief you were gunning for.

    I often feel that nothing BUT a good spanking will sort me out. I'm usually proven right.

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